Getting to the root of it...
I noticed I ate more than I needed, wanted, or tasted this weekend. I was aware that this bothered me on some level, but I didn’t quite understand what was happening for me. So I explored with these 4 simple questions:
Curiosity: What was I feeling?
I was feeling drained, like I wanted alone time if social time wasn't connected enough, like I wanted a reward after working very hard all week but nothing was quite sweet or filling enough, I was feeling a need for closeness, eye contact, deep questions, warmth, skin, hugs.
Sensations: What was happening in my body?
I felt crampy, uncomfortable, movement (not stillness), back pain, sore muscles, physically cold.
Acceptance: If this is how I felt, what did I need?
I needed to curl up on the couch with a warm cup of tea, to sit at a cafe with B and share about the above, to listen to music that moistens my soul with honey and is at the pace that I wanted to mirror (slow and soft), to text a friend about how I was feeling, to meditate on a beach scene, to take a warm bubble bath, to say no to some things in order to say yes to the above.
Compassion: What does loving kindness sound like?
How brave of you to reflect and face these feelings now.
Eating more than you need is not the worst thing you could have done.
It's ok to take the easy route sometimes, even if you know the harder route is better for you in the long run.
Nothing is wrong. It's just real life.
